Really?

4am.

Perhaps it's the disturbing noise trucks driving outside rehearsed at late night or the air I inhaled in in early winter morning while looking out for the hope to witness the sunrise; surprisingly, I am so calm yet so hung up on your words that I am still unable to close my eyes and call it a night - 'your exes were all losers. Fuck.'

Sitting here, I burst out laughing, this is just not the first time I have heard those words. Man. I think I really fucked things up.
25. With two of the boxes for "must-have-in-life" still unchcked on the top of the list. Now, I feel officially pathetic.

Put on the repeat mode. The song keeps spinning. You said you will mark this as my song. Judy's song.
How sweet the song humming; how bitter my heart sinking.

Maybe I just need to cry out loud. Maybe everything will turn out just right. Maybe it's all just part of the process. Maybe, and maybe, and maybe.

Maybe everything will be fine tomorrow, and someone will love me like described in the song.
Maybe.






Really?


By Your Side - Sade

You think I'd leave your side baby?
You know me better than that
You think I'd leave down when your down on your knees?
I wouldn't do that

I'll do you right when your wrong
I-----ohhh, ohhh

If only you could see into me

oh, when your cold
I'll be there to hold you tight to me
When your on the outside baby and you can't get in
I will show you, your so much better than you know
When your lost, when your alone and you can't get back again
I will find you darling I'll bring you home

If you want to cry
I am here to dry your eyes
and in no time you'll be fine

You think I'd leave your side baby
You know me better than that
You think I'd leave you down when your down on your kness
I wouldn't do that

I'll do you right when your wrong
I-----I, ohhhh, ohhh

If only you could see into me

Oh when your cold
I'll be there To hold you tight to me
Oh when your alone
I'l be there by your side baby