i will see you in 5 years on your bday.
and you know you have my best wishes on your wedding.
at times when no one could understand me you could
i did not know you could see my solitary my part tearing down my heart beats
you were always there for me as a figure
just like when you were traveling around the world i was a figure to you too
maybe the figure we had in our mind weren't even the real each other
but just someone we created in our mind that we can think of when we were feeling desperately lonely
and we just thought we missed each other
...but maybe we really did
probably just like what you said
we couldn't get close to each other so we ran away from each other
i even got used to talkin to you once every year and also your sudden dissapearance
and everytime you were in different place with different people speaking different language
and i was always on the "right track" as what other people described
even though sometimes i really doubted if i was really talkin to the person i had in my memory since it has been so long
but i just chose to believe that it was you
the you that i met when i was 16 years old
during these 5 and half years of not seeing each other
i guess you changed, and i grew up.
at times i really wish you can always be there
you could always be so honest with me that no one else could be
you could always englighten me with points i couldn't realize
i wish i could depend on you, but i guess i have to grow up and learn all those by myself
at times i really miss how we don't get it when each other is trying to be funny
and making fun of each other when we are actually really serious about things
and saying that we better to put a big [J] after every joke/teasing we make
so we dont miss each other's joke.
god i will really miss it..
i wish i could read the letters you wrote to me
i will be expecting them because you will no longer need them anymore anyways
and you know the xnaga will always be there too with all my wishes and nostalgia
we couldn't accomplish our one year plan becuase the fact i did transfer to NYU
and you end up disappearing to china
remember ...we were still deciding between France and Spain?
you should know that i am very happy for you that you've found someone
and i believe that you will be able to find whatever you think you are missing from that little Park in France
i really believe so
so
we have to say goodbye now
not exactly a goodbye but more like a see you later
time doesnt seem to be a constraint to us anyway since it's been 5 years since the last time we seen each other in person
another 5 years..should be enough time
i really will give you my best wishes on your wedding
and sorry that i will not be able to attend it as much as i would love to
so
take care for now
and i will see you on Feb 14, 2012 on your bday with your wife and youf kids
[plural for sure]
